I think i should be quite famous now for being a '不简单的女人‘ within some circle of friends,for i could make people fall on me easily. Is my too friendly, too cheerful, too happy, make people misunderstand, or did i say anything or do anything that make people misunderstand, or indeed i m really like what they say, a person that like to '搞暧昧'?I m like a useless that 'cheating' so many guys out there. Sometimes i just hate myself, i wanna be friend with them and JUST FRIEND.Its okay to have a little of MSN,a little of sms,a little of chit chatting rite?But i never think that they will like me or whatever.Sorry, i m really that 'Slow'. And when other tell me, i will tend to curious about it. I m just too stupid for dunno how to say no, dunno how to reject people,or just a message to say "WE ARE IMPOSSIBLE". I really scare that i hurt people feelings or in the other way, i m hurting someone else out there?So, tell me what should i do in the next step.How i hope i m leaving this place by tomorrow.I just cant stand with the rumors out there. I think i better kill myself before seeing those peoples again.I know i shouldn't say all these, but i just dunno how to face the peoples out there, i cant stand with their thoughts upon me. I dun think i can take the pressure out there. Should i just put on a mask when i go out or i should just do everything silently or isolate myself from the big group for awhile? I guess my reputation is really bad out there, but i know i should behave what i should be. Not let the world judge you, but let yourself be the judge. So do everything that you think is right and benefits you.
If i m continue acting like this, i think i m killing myself slowly.Lord,i called for your guidance and give me wisdom and show me how to handle all these,how to solve all these. Or i should just let people say whatever they want? because they control their own mouth,not me.
If i m continue acting like this, i think i m killing myself slowly.Lord,i called for your guidance and give me wisdom and show me how to handle all these,how to solve all these. Or i should just let people say whatever they want? because they control their own mouth,not me.
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It's 3:30am.
Been crying, crying n crying like an idiot.
I guess its just time to sleep now.
I hope i don't have a swollen eye when i wake up.
3 months till graduate,and i shall run.
I am sorry.
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